Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Godspeed My Love

I'll see you when it's my time to join you, dear Annie.

Tomorrow will be the 33rd anniversary of the day I met Patti. This morning she passed away in her sleep.
She was only 57 when our Father called her Home.

I will miss you so much, my love.


mushroom said...

Oh, man. I am so sorry.

You will be in our prayers.

If there is anything we can do, let us know.

John Lien said...

I'm so sorry to hear that Ben. I'm praying for the both of you. I asked God to give you the strength to bear this pain.

julie said...

Oh, Ben, how awful. You and Patti and your girls will all be in my prayers, too.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thanks, Mushroom.
The coroner said he wouldn't have a preliminary COD until friday (if at all) but he believed that Patti died quickly and painlessly.
For that I am most grateful.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thank you John.
I'm gonna need all the strength I can get. This hurts more than anything I have ever gone through.
When I told our oldest daughter...well, I really wanted to spare her that pain.

I hafta wait to tell our youngest until her 12 hour shift at the hospital is over in a few more hours.
No way am I gonna text her this.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thanks Julie.
The coroner was such a nice guy he gave me his home phone. So did the deputy that showed up and the county chaplain lady.
I don't know any of them but they offered their private cell numbers in case I needed to talk and told ,e to call anytime.

Patti deserves to have more written about her but I simply cannot write anymore at the moment.
But I will. Later.

Leslie Godwin said...

I will also be praying for you and your girls. My heart is beyond broken for you.
May God always walk beside you and strengthen you, and may you be certain of His presence and feel His Grace.
Love and blessings,
Leslie Godwin

Kurt said...

God bless and keep you, brother, during this terribly difficult time. I am lifting you up in prayer with tears in my eyes...


Rick said...

Oh, Ben. I am so sorry.
I feel like I know her well from the little comments you've left here and there about your adventure together down here.
We will be praying for her and you and your family.

Van Harvey said...

Ben, I'm so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine... but as my mind refuses to allow me to, my words can't hope to help with what you are experiencing now. I do hope you know that wherever 'here' is, we're all there with you, and our heartfelt prayers are with you and your family.

Don Johnson said...

Ben, we are so sorry. You are in our hearts and minds here. Godspeed to dear Patti.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thank you, Leslie.
Today I am happy to say that both of our girls will be here saturday.
It's been 13 years since they have both been home at the same time.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thank you so much, Kurt.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thanks Rick.
She got to know you guys a bit as well.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Your words, prayers and spirit help more than you know, Van.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thank you, Don.
I don't know if I mentioned it before but Patti was very fond of many of your photos.

Joan of Argghh! said...

Oh, Ben! May the God of all comfort sustain you in your loss. May Patti find such joy in His presence that its overflow finds its way to balm your broken heart.

I grieve with you, dear friend.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thank you Joan,
Knowing Patti is at peace amd without pain now really has made this more bearable.
I can still smell her (she smells like love) from her pillow.

LeeAnn said...

I never know what to say at times like these except that I hope your pain fades but your memories endure forever.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thank you LeeAnn.
I know what you mean about finding the right words to say, but you have touched my heart which goes beyond words.

katzxy said...

Dear Ben,

May God grant you peace and comfort. I will pray for you and Patti.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thank you, Katzxy.

Sal said...

Ben, dear,

So very sorry to hear this. You made us all know how very special and fine Patti was.
Prayers for all of you, to be strengthened and upheld.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thanks Sal,

Hopefully, I can do some more of that in the future.
It does my heart good to hear from you guys again.

JWM said...

I just saw the link at Bob's site. My condolences, Ben. Prayers for you and her.
God bless.

John M

Gecko said...

Oh Ben, just saw the news of Patti. What a great way to press on to whatever is next. So sorry for your loss. Praying for you and yours.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thanks John,
It's been an emotional rollercoaster and I have never experienced emotions this deeply before, particularly grief and sadness but also thankfulness and yes, even joy.

I suppose you could say my emotions have been almost bipolarish in one sense, but not hysterically so, thank God.

I dunno. it's difficult to describe.

USS Ben USN (Ret) said...

Thank you, Gecko.
I am so very blessed our girls were both able to be here.
We have certainly grown closer these last few days and will continue to do so.
It's also been good to have our granddaughter here.
Today i taught her how to skip rocks down by the river.