Monday, June 16, 2014
Last night, for the first time since Patti died, I had a dream.
The first thing I recall from this dream is how remarkedly vivid it was.
Usually, I know when I'm dreaming. But not last night. Not at first.
Vivid. It felt real and it looked real. It even smelled real. Super duper high def (without the download wait)!
At the beginning of the dream I'm walking down the hallway to our living room. When the entire living room and the kitchen (in between me and the living room) is in view I see her, sitting in her favorite chair!
I'm taken aback and I stop. Try as I might I cannot process what I am seeing adequately.
"Patti!" I shouted, a feeling of relief and joy overwhelming me.
My God can this be true?
I move forward, slowly, afraid to take my eyes off of Patti (not that I wanted to)!
Patti turns her head to look at me and smiles.
And my heart khips a beat in excitement!
Then the questions start. Questions I could've done without. At least for awhile longer.
Was I dreaming Patti's death and everything these last few weeks? Am I dreaming? This doesn't make sense.
And then I woke up.
I curse my mind for asking these questions snd tell it to "shut up! You fool!"
Tears flow from my eyes for a time and then I recall Patti's smile...which causes me to smile.
Thank you, Lord, I thought.
"I love you, Patti," I said, getting up to take the dogs out.